Feelings are just that. Feelings! How do you want to feel at the end of the month was a question on my self reflection questionnaire this morning and I had to stop and really think about how I wanted to feel. Life has been a whirlwind for me and truth be told, it has taken me more than seven weeks to get my get up and go mindset back.
After some medical setbacks, I really had been in the dumps all through May, but now that I am midway into June, I want to get back in business shape, but somedays, I wonder if I have forgotten how to do it. While the world was still hustling, I was living in a surreal state staring at blank screen, words in books that I had to reread several times and a box of noise also known as a television. I found myself wondering if I was bordering depression because my mojo was gone and my energy was even less than a cup of coffee and B-12 could fix.
Then I picked up my self reflection paper and stared at the question. How do you want to feel at the end of the month? I knew I needed to find an answer and find it fast because my month whizzes on by faster than the papers on my desk get filed.
At the end of this month, I want to feel energized, accomplished, and full of passion for my coaching business. I want to see progress, new clients, results and walk on the bridge of success. I want to be back to focusing on getting results and seeing my joy for my business on a rising scale of walking the walk and talking the talk. I want to reap and sow and remember why I became a certified coach and recently earned my human behavior specialist certifications.
Over the month, I have been second guessing myself and thinking I should start looking for a J.O.B. because I have to really seek and work hard in my business to make money. But if I had a job where they would review my resume, call for an interview, debate whether they should hire me and then pay me to help someone else be better at their job, plus I would have a guaranteed income month after month. Sounds rewarding, enticing, right? Then I had the second thought, why would I want to leave my comfy bed at 5am, buy new clothes that are office appropriate, lock myself into traditional office hours and come home to be wife, mom, fur mom and off to bed only to repeat again a few hours later.
So what do I need to do. At the end of each day, I want to reflect on my progress and start fresh the next day. I need to go back to the old way of progress instead of closing the calendar and tucking it in a comfortable box called a comfort zone and break the chains that are holding my mind hostage. It’s time to get back in business. The world can whiz on by, but I am going to catch up. I may not have it all together somedays, but I am learning that nothing can stop me, except me.